About Me

The only “About Me” that I can state with certainty: I am a daughter of the King, saved by more grace than I can fathom.

If you are surprised by where life has taken you, who you have become, who you long to be, and the shape of grown-up life, you have landed on the page of someone who is swimming in that same surprise. And who is processing some of it here, in tiny thoughts and wee small jots.

I delight in joy and beauty, laugh quickly with others and alone, weep easily over both the sweet and bitter, and sometimes have too poetic a heart for practical good. Then I belch at a ballgame, chase the hotdog and peanuts with a handful of Tums, and all the poetry dissipates, making life suddenly very down-to-earth.

My worst nightmare is being misunderstood, having my intentions misconstrued. Writing a blog pretty much guarantees that nightmare come true. But …

I want to learn to be brave. If you know me and think all the missionary travel I do around the world counts courageous, I appreciate it, but I want to be braver.

I want to practice this gift of communication and writing that has been part of too many conversations with God, friends, and family for too many years for me to ignore. I want to practice jumping in when he invites me, even when he hasn’t told me exactly how it will look. I want to stop rolling my eyes when other people encourage me to write. I want to practice being secure in who God says I am, what he says I am worth, and how he sees me because of his Son and his extraordinary love.

I want to breathe my faith deeply and, as my friends in Asia say when we talk about trust and love and grace and growth, I want to “untie the knots of my heart.”

When I was little and imagined being all grown-up, I was certain I would know precisely who I was and what life entailed. I would be ever steady and have it all sorted. Turns out the grown-up landscape can be pretty slip and slide, hill and valley, salt and fresh.

But I am learning to be ever steady in who God is.

2 responses to “About Me

  1. Kerry Kathryn

    simply courageous, vulnerable and beautiful …shine on!

  2. And the ‘Me’ that you are ⏤ made by God.
    So happy to find you again. God is in the business of prodding.
    On our Reading, Reflection, and Bible Community we were given the Passage Acts 22:1-23
    The questions probed my heart and my mind. The verses that came out for me to ponder today. And as I share this, know it is a private site, so this is very vulnerable sharing…
    It reminds me that God is morphing me as well.

    “19.’But Lord,’ I argued, ‘they certainly know that in every synagogue I imprisoned and beat those who believed in you.
    20. And I was in complete agreement when your witness Stephen was killed. I stood by and kept the coats they took off when they stoned him.’

    21. “But the Lord said to me, ‘Go, for I will send you far away to the Gentiles!'”

    I’m pondering these words today…
    Thinking about –
    A man who ‘knew he was “RIGHT”… being picked up and turning him in another direction… not just another direction…another mission… going from against to for…

    Abba
    teach
    lead
    bring
    plant
    harvest
    my heart ” ————
    These words written this morning right before I found out you were here on this page. I find that a ‘GOD thing’
    hugs
    Robyn Rochelle

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